First of all, i want to say i feel ashamed. I feel ashamed of what happened in the last two nights.

I want to tell you how deeply sorry i am for the things i said, specially last night. It was late, i was depressed and my brain just started to collapse and i said things i DEFINITELY did NOT mean.

I know you probably hate my guts right now a lot.

I don't know what i must do for you to forgive me. I had hoped i would have not to write such a message to you, as you wanted some months ago. I had hoped nothing too bad had happened between us so that i would have to even consider writing this.


I want to tell you that i believe we can be happy again. Not as happy as when we are together for sure, but at least "half-happy", as we were in the times before our meetings. All it takes is understanding and patience from each other.

Ive been selfish, i know that now. And i want to tell you that i will make my very best to be a better boyfriend and a better friend, like i told you yesterday. And this time, i hope i succeed, and not just go back to arguments/discussions.

To be totally honest with you i am tired of all this distance thing. But i want to face it. I want to endure it. Because the reward will be us being together in the future. And hell, that's something i will never get tired of fighting for. Not unless you give up on me. And i sure hope it was not last night.

Even if it takes a few days, i hope you can sincerely forgive me and try to go back to happy times with me.

I miss you so damn much i cant even think right.

Please...don't leave me.